Confessions of a Dangerous and a Subversive Mind

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Fast Forward to Yesterday

Thinking of the good times we’ve shared

I knew it was too much to ask

Remembering the times when you cared

Even though I felt it for just a moment

I could have asked you to stay

But I didn’t and now I regret it so much

So time just passed and went away

Could you please fast forward to yesterday?

Why does it have to come to this?

I just read and played my part

Everything to you is just “Hit and Miss”

Because it has been wrong from the start

Why did you even consider us? 

Was it love or was it a compromise?

Did I ever have a say in this?

You just stepped out and walked away

God, if it is possible could you please fast forward to yesterday?

When it was so damn easy to be with you

When you laughed about the slightest things

When everything was so beautiful

Why did it end up like this?

Can I just go back from the start?

Will you mend this broken heart and say

Darling let’s fast forward to yesterday

When it was so damn easy to be with you

When you laughed about the slightest things

When everything was so beautiful

Why did it end up like this?

Can I just go back from the start?

Will you whisper softly and say

Darling let’s fast forward to yesterday

Suspended Animation

It was about 1:30 AM when we decided to call it a night. Me and a couple of good friends went to the local net cafe to play some old school “Battle Realms” and we’ve been playing for about two and a half hours. 

I wasn’t expecting to see whom I saw this night.

As I turned my gaze at the cashier…I was dumbfounded, stupefied and mesmerized by a really beautiful sight.

It was my(our) all-time crush back in high school who happens to be tending the net cafe at the cashier. I mean seriously, how long has it been? A good 9 years? — or maybe less. She is the daughter of the owner and who happens to have graduated college when we were still in our barongs and slacks, shiny nice shoes and 2x3 haircut. I was so awestruck to have seen her again that I didn’t know what to say. 

We then gave our payments and I was surprised that she recognized my friend. Even calling him that pet name that she gave him…and I was like — “Where’s my pet name? Oh yeah, I didn’t have any…” 

I handed over my payment and she was like “…Here’s your change, sir.”

She barely recognized me…and to think I used to play there a lot during high school. I remembered the time when we had a little chat about the meatballs that were still being served in my high school. And I also remembered the time my bloody sister stormed inside the computer shop ‘coz I was out late on a school night playing Final Fantasy X (..XX — hold on, not that kind) and she had to see that utmost embarrassing scene of which she just gave me a nice smile. Or the time I paid using my “only” 200 peso bill of which she said that it was the first 200 peso bill in their cashier. Or the time I always played Final Fantasy X and she would have the game reserved for me ‘coz I always played that game there. I was a bit stunned she didn’t remember me at all.

What’s the deal with that “…sir” bit! I’m just the little kid named Emil who played PS2 there all the friggin’ time. 

Anyway she still was so stunning, gorgeous and damn right sexy that I guess I didn’t mind that she didn’t remember me because I want to show her how much I’ve grown and matured over the past couple of years. Who knows? I might come back tomorrow and buy two tickets for a trip down memory lane. 

Anyway back to the story, I walked out and I was like doing my usual headbanging, wall kicking, banister humping stint when I see a really beautiful woman and it creeped both my friends out. We then realized we could have asked her out to eat with us at Jolibee but nah…it would be too awkward already. But I guess it wouldn’t hurt to ask next time :)

Free Writing Session…Octavarium.

5:45 - 

Damn I missed writing “Free Writing Session” sessions. And I have 15 minutes of writing about some nonsensical shit. So 15 minutes of nonsensical shit, what the fuck will we talk about?

5:47 - 

I almost had a meeting with my Global Lead today and I’ve already set my shit to writing within 15 minutes. 

5:49 - 

Having quick looks at the workstation across me and seeing her all busy. I really don’t know but I am really fucking attracted to this person. FUCK!! Another office romance my fucking ass…I am really trying my hardest not to get attracted but ever since I noticed her…I was like “Damn it, I want to get involved with her”. 

5:57 - 

One last look…Ok I’m good. Three minutes to talk about what? Ok I’d like to talk about the shit…let’s finish this later I have a fucking meeting. Cheers!

100 Pesos a Day Challenge: Day 2 - Breaking Dawn

Day 2 of the 100 Pesos a Day Challenge - I seem to have miscalculated my budget for this day because it seems I am still in motherfucking dreamland of abundance of milk and honey. I subconsciously got Alodia (my car) out and drove her to work. Only to have realized I only have 100 pesos in my damn pocket. I started to have a panic attack when I neared to toll gate since this is going to deduct 24 pesos off of my working budget. 

Good thing Alodia has some loose change in her. So I managed to have paid the toll without hurting my budget.

Working Budget: P100.00

Lunchtime came and I was “almost” invited to a lunch out in Burgos Circle. Good thing it wasn’t addressed to me since it was addressed to the whole team. The Rule clearly states that if someone asked “me” out, I would have to come. Then later on someone invited me to go out and buy some lunch in KFC. I managed to buy a simple P29 Chicken Burger.

Working Budget: P71.00

And again, I realized I still have to pay for the parking fee which is P50.00 so what the fuck…

Working Budget: P21.00

That’s P4.00 less to use Coastal Road. SHIT!!

Good thing there’s this PPM Merienda shindig happening today so I was able to eat my ass off. Don’t worry i’ll just work my way off the treadmill or skip dinner or whatnot.

100 Pesos a day Challenge: Day 1 - The Wallet Scene

As I have promised, I will be doing the 100 Pesos a day challenge (Insert applause here) and to prove to you all that this shit is not for show. Now let’s discuss further on what the 100 Pesos a day challenge is all about.

Watch this little video clip to brief you about the 100 Pesos a day Challenge

(Well, not only does this video promotes my blog but this video also proves to you that I suck in math.)

100 Pesos a day Challenge Rules:

1. Tanchi will only have 100 pesos in his pocket everyday for 1 month
2. When somebody asks Tanchi out, he has to come with them
3. If you spot Tanchi NOT abiding by the rules, then he has to give you 500 pesos
4. ATM, Credit Cards, etc. will be stored away in a safe place, away from Tanchi’s reach

Finally, Tanchi has come back to Tumblr

HELL YEAH!! I’m so fucking back after so many months. What the hell did I miss? The 100 Pesos a day challenge? Winner of “The Smoothest Play”? SHIT! This is no Rivermaya event to be proud about if you get the fuck that I’m talking about. Well this is me who happens to have schizophrenia and expresses his pent up subversiveness here in Tumblr. In Tumblr I can be the riot that broke out of Muammar Gaddafi’s backyard! I missed my readers so much that I’ll go out to Attica today and I’d try to pick up some chicks using the new moves that I’ve learned during my 2 month Sabbatical.

(Check this Motherfucker’s grin out!)

What to watch out for next week’s post:

1. I’ll be declaring the winner for “The Smoothest Play” Contest. As I promised, it’s an all expense paid dinner for 2. Again, I appreciate those who have submitted their plays but there can only be one Winner. Well the winner is the “Sneaky Payong” Play by thebodski so congrats brother!! I’ll email you the details.

2. The “100-Pesos-a-day” Challenge will be resumed. I’ll also be doing this hopefully this September. I should get through the day with only 100 bucks in my wallet. Catch is, whenever someone asks me to go out, I have to go with them at all costs. No pun intended. To make this interesting I’ll be posting a videoblog (just like Mocha) about this. More details coming up!

3. The “Hey, my friend’s birthday is coming up” Play - One of the plays I have learned during my monday night excursion. It is a semi suave play that covers all the basic principles of “Da Moves”. More of this also coming up!!

4. When to “Fold” and when to go “All Out” - Sometimes we won’t know that we’ve lost until the loss hits you in the face with a 2x2 Plywood (Dos por Dos) and suddenly realizing what a jackass you’ve been. Again, more of this coming your way!!!

Slow dancing in a Burning Room

So I was sound tripping yesterday after a really long (I really mean a “really long” day — just text me or mail me or simply chat with me for specifics. This is a very interesting story so I really suggest you take some time to listen to it.) and I think someone has again “Incepted” a John Mayer song into my mind which was titled “Slow Dancing in a Burning Room” and now I have the urge to play it. The first was “Your Body is a Wonderland”, it wasn’t a specific John Mayer song that I wanted to play but the idea of playing a John Mayer song was suggested to me.

Anyhow, I was sound tripping yesterday (Youtube-ing) learning how to play “Slow dancing in a Burning Room” by John Mayer. As much as I hate to admit it, my guitar style sort of emulates John Mayer’s style which is sort of a mix of Soul and Blues. I guess I should thank the person (girl) who sort of “Incepted” John Mayer into me because when I played the song, I think I found out what I was looking for in five years, my very own playing style — of which I got from John Mayer and Slash

…But that’s not why I am writing this entry here.

Anyhow when for the nth time when I was listening to “Slow dancing in a Burning Room” sure I was singing along when I was doing each riff and I cannot help but to relate to the lyrics of what happened to me yesterday (…or rather Monday). I mean what the devil was I thinking falling for her? Yeah I’m sure you’re probably thinking this as a lame excuse but what the fuck do I even care of what you think!

I mean she’s everything I really wanted in a girl. She’s fun, she’s very interesting, she’s her own woman, she’s driven, she’s very beautiful (that’s why she’s a model asshole, duh?) and her eyes, her smile, everything about her is perfect. It’s just that I don’t think that I would be right for her. I mean I couldn’t strike a really good conversation with her because it always ends in dead air. I mean I could tell she is really trying to strike up a conversation and for that I want you to shoot me in the dead with a .45 Magnum for being such a pussy for not being able to step up to the stage because I don’t deserve her. 

If you’re reading this now, let me just say that it was really fun being with you even though the last time we’ve met ended up in a disaster. You always said that I shouldn’t apologize because you’re the kind of woman who doesn’t mind not having air conditioning in the car but I again let me apologize because I couldn’t meet your expectations. I couldn’t be that knight in shining armor but rather just a simple fat dude on a Volks whose brake screeches like fuckin’ crazy and whose interior smells like motor oil. I mean I’ve screwed myself — I blew my chance (or if there was even a chance) of being with you and whenever I think about what happened yesterday (Monday) I just feel like a total loser — and I know I would like things to work out but I’m just too much of a dense A-hole who knows nothing of what women want. It feels like I’m slow dancing in a burning room ‘coz I can’t get over the fact that when I’m together with you, I can’t seem to make you smile or laugh and I don’t know why you’re still sitting there in your seat and not leaving me out to dry. I deserved to be left at that table you know — but thanks for not doing so :)

So cheers to that!! To the loser who just blew himself to pieces!!